Season of waiting is inevitable for every child of God.
I’m a mom of two children- a toddler and a 4 month old and I also work a full-time job. I have been waiting on God to give me an answer to a specific prayer that I’ve been praying for quite some time now.
Waiting is not easy. You want God to just answer you and help you right away. If you are in that season or have experienced such season, or just want to know about how God works in the waiting season, read on..
I have been praying and asking God to help my husband and me to make a decision regarding if I should continue with my job or bid adieu to it, become a stay-at-home-mom and work part-time. The first time I prayed this prayer was when I was taking care of my toddler(who at the time was a year old) while working full-time from home. It was a conscious decision to not put our child in a day care until she turned two. But, as a result, I had to juggle between taking care of her and working. To say the least, it was a very stressful time. I used to feel guilty and various waves of emotions would just sweep me over, every day. So, when I was pregnant with my second baby, I knew I wanted to stay home taking care of my kids and also work on my own thing so I can earn an income. Last year, I tried working on a project so that I can have something set up by the time I really have to let go of my current job. But, it fell through and I was put in a position where I cannot have a side hustle to earn an extra income any more.
In over a month from now, I am going to have no help during the day time when my parents return to India and my husband leaves for work. My toddler will be going to pre-school four days a week starting next academic year but just thinking about handling two littles while working on a full-time job has been stressing me out a lot lately. One day, I shared with my husband how I really want God to answer me right now as I don’t want to wait. My husband spoke something so wise that changed my perspective over life and all the various situations we go through. He said,
The word ‘preparation’ had everything I needed to hear.
Although I’m still waiting on God for an answer, in my waiting season, God has been helping me grow closer to Him, teaching me so many valuable lessons along the way and I won’t trade this with anything else. Yes, I still get worried sometimes thinking about what we should do, what’s the right thing to do and many other things. But I’m seeing God’s hand at work- not in answering me about what we should do but in shaping me to become the person He wants me to be. I’m being prepared for my eternal life with Him and oh how precious it is!
As an answer to my prayer, God spoke to me through Ephesians 3:20,
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”
I am looking forward to actually see how God will make this verse to unfold in my life!
The joy of the Lord is my strength- it’s the joy that I CANNOT find anywhere else, no, not at all! In this waiting season, the way I’m growing is not because of my own effort but it is the grace of God alone. It is His grace that is enabling me to have a new perspective and a renewed mindset. I’m able to place my hope in Him, trust in Him and just enjoy the process of ‘preparation’, for I know that God is with me and for me.
O God, you are my God;
I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
where there is no water.
I have seen you in your sanctuary
and gazed upon your power and glory.
Your unfailing love is better than life itself;
how I praise you!
I will praise you as long as I live,
lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
You satisfy me more than the richest feast.
I will praise you with songs of joy.
I lie awake thinking of you,
meditating on you through the night.
Because you are my helper,
I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
I cling to you;
your strong right hand holds me securely.
Psalm 63:1-8
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:30, 31